I hope Im Not Repeating Myself

I wish you never said you loved me I wish that I thought it was shady

I wish my heart wasn't crazy I wish I never have babies I wish me well but I never have health I wish I believed in God again I wish To go where no one could hear the sound of my cry I wish I didn't feel so alone And sometimes I wish I could die I wish I could close my heart forever I wish i couldn't remember you ever I only can wish for a better tomorrow In the mindtime, I live with my sorrow

In The Same State Of Mind

In the Same Horizon I lie here in the same place of my childhood of my younger days I never thought Id stay the same as always I thought I would change To something brighter or whole That maybe some day I'll meet with happiness somewhere I never imagined the state I find myself in The same darkness, the Same fears The same shadows of my years Surpassing my struggles and yet facing the same sorrows Over and Over Im stuck in a hole that never changes since the beginning to the endings

Worlds Apart

We're Two Worlds the Same But miles apart Time was reunited us and Separated still keeps us I feel you closer than anyone and farther away than everyone No matter what I do, I can't be with you The space between us is so wide and it deepens with the sunrise My heart aims to see you everyday Yet I don't Know if you feel the same way Shadows come and Buildings Rise But I dont see you eye to eye hopefully someday I get to see your eyes Or Maybe realize we're worlds apart.

A New Love

I found a new love, I've always longed for Even More than you. What I wanted more, Even if it isn't true I've forgotten myself and my dreams, since you came into my life All i wanted was to breathe you in. But since you're gone i remembered what makes me whole What i truly live for Theirs nothing i want more. I hope you never return But if you do, ill show you what i replaced you for Something as pure as the Sun This passion running through my veins I wont hesitate to hide it no more I need to let go of my fears or Death will be near.

Hate

Hate my life Been stuck for years In a place I don't belong Never done anything of worth To afraid to let go Helping people Never got me an award Hate my job. Hate myself for not taking a chance For not leaving this place For staying close to what I hate the most That made me into something I don't even know Hate the bullshit Hate this feelings Hate the lungs that I breath in Hate my world Stuck in the past Love lost Where are you God?

Feeling Lost Without You

Dreaming about you, even when I don't want to Feeling like I wanna see you when I don't have to The thing is I don't want you, But my heart keeps remembering all this shit about you All I think about is when will I be free from Feeling like this absence has marked me I want to remember the bad things, I want to not feel like I want you back to me Time passes and nothing changes, Silently in love and lost without you.

I don't get

We all want.. Someone that wants to spend time with you To feel like you're someone worthy IT sucks to have to beg people to love you To beg for attention, to expose yourself, be open so that someone might want to take a closer look into your heart The worst thing is when you find that person You also have to be careful not to show your flaws, not to mess up or make them upset cause they might just pack their bags and leave at the first sight of thunderstorm And people always say things like "your time will come" Who decides when is it a better time? And why do other people already have their time? Why is love something to wait for? Why can i just go look for it, set it as a goal? Why do we have to wait until someone want to pursue you? And find you interesting and deserving? Why is your happiness in someone else's hand?

Will It Make Sense?

Maybe You see life as a test I see it like a big mess I remember every word you said And still I cannot Forget The way you made me feel That day when I needed you there And you ran away I can't get over it cause I still feel rejected since that day I've been trying to make amends, Trying to find some way to feel Okay Like I belong somewhere, Like I'm worthy again.. I don't have hepatitis or aids but I feel like they Maybe It's your fault, maybe Its mine ALL I know is this trace of pain that you left my way Hopefully someday I look back and not feel sad when I think about that day The day you push me away.. I don't know what I did to deserve this misery I hope that in the end it all makes sense.

Dias Como Tu

Dias en que no quiero escribir, no quiero pensar, no quiero vivir Lo dificil es planear tu vida y que eso no llegue a ocurrir Perder el control de ella Quiero vivir a mi manera, imagino lo que quiera Y que ganamos con esto? cumplir lo que queremos? A veces todo es tan complejo.. Siempre me quejo Si bailamos , reimos ,y lloramos ? Cuando nada te da satisfación, y todo se vuelve monótono Nacer de nuevo seria la solución? Gente viene y va, solo quedan los momentos y la edad. Pienso en el amor y si es una falsedad? Porque sentirse tan vacio cuando alguno no esta? Como hacer que te vuelva la bondad? la caridad ? la hermandad? Si sólo el egoismo reina en nuestra sociedad. Sonar cliche debe ser un delito, pero está tan arraigado en nosotros que nos vuelve adictos al sin fin de comunes que vivimos.

Saying Goodbye

I'm sorry if I was hard on you when I said goodbye If I hurt you by letting you see I was hurt I mean no harm or pain I do wish you the best Don't believe me when I say. I don't want to talk to you cause I do But I can't be your friend maybe never again I wish I could because I value your friendship so much I wish my feelings weren't as strong but they are bigger than I had ever known I wish I could just take them away and we could talk like before I feel like I lost a true friend If you ever read this just know that you are one of the best people I've ever known I wish I could of told you this and so many things more But It was time for me to let you go I forgave you and I hope you can grow Forgive me if I treat you like a stranger But I have no other choice I'm not as strong as you thought I was If you ever read this just know I wish you happiness and joy.

Lo Que Entiendo Hasta Ahora

A veces las cosas no salen como queremos, los tropiezos se hacen rutina Las lagrimas se convierten en rios, y los oceanos de alegria se secan. Con el tiempo nos damos cuenta de que No siempre hay un final feliz como en las peliculas, no todos tenemos la vida resuelta, Personas que estaban , ya no estan Lugares que conociamos parecen desconocidos, pero la vida sigue hacia donde? Nadie sabe.. Lo que si se es que aprendemos, a ser mas fuertes, a luchar Contra lo que sea, a pelear como un samurai a mirar hacia delante y aunque aveces miremos hacia tras, a voltear la mirada. A buscar libertad aunque sea prohibida y la paz aunque sea escasa. A perdonar a quien no merece y a ver lo bueno en las personas que de verdad se preocupan por ti. A no ser exigente y aceptar el momento y ser feliz con el pedazo de pan diario. A buscar conocimiento en un lugar vacio,a hacer preguntas , a no oscultar las dudas, A questionar nuestro alrededor, a estar firmes en lo queremos y a no saciarnos con la mediocridad. Y lo mas importante a ser quien eres.. Arriesgarte y pararte al frente de tus miedos, sacarle la lengua y seguir caminando.

Solo Existe

Cada dia mas, me siento mas lejos de mi misma Ya no hay pasos adelante , sino pasos hacia tras Solo hay piedras en mi camino, no hay espacios para caminar sin tropezar Y dicen que lo que no te mata te hace mas fuerte, pues a mi me ha vuelto mas debil, sintiendo como mi vida se me escapa de mis manos ya no se que hacer para cambiar mi destino Solo existen pocos momentos de alegria y paz Solo existe soledad ,Solo existen pensamientos atormentadores y mis replicas de angustia Solo existen ellos, y yo dejo de existir cuando se apoderan de mi y mi yo, se vuelve inexistente.

And Here Once More

And here once more ,I find myself writing all this words Complaining all my sorrows They never leave me ,they never borrow Someone else's time instead of mine People wish me luck, that I've never had Don't wish to find placebo for it neither I just hope for a new day to begin I'm sick of feeling a Deja Vu that never ends It only revives again in my heart No matter how well It starts It all ends back to that lonely empty part I can't run away from it It's always hiding in the dark I wish I promised myself to find a way out of this To never come back But I keep finding myself here again, where all this suffering began