Hate

Hate my life Been stuck for years In a place I don't belong Never done anything of worth To afraid to let go Helping people Never got me an award Hate my job. Hate myself for not taking a chance For not leaving this place For staying close to what I hate the most That made me into something I don't even know Hate the bullshit Hate this feelings Hate the lungs that I breath in Hate my world Stuck in the past Love lost Where are you God?

Feeling Lost Without You

Dreaming about you, even when I don't want to Feeling like I wanna see you when I don't have to The thing is I don't want you, But my heart keeps remembering all this shit about you All I think about is when will I be free from Feeling like this absence has marked me I want to remember the bad things, I want to not feel like I want you back to me Time passes and nothing changes, Silently in love and lost without you.

I don't get

We all want.. Someone that wants to spend time with you To feel like you're someone worthy IT sucks to have to beg people to love you To beg for attention, to expose yourself, be open so that someone might want to take a closer look into your heart The worst thing is when you find that person You also have to be careful not to show your flaws, not to mess up or make them upset cause they might just pack their bags and leave at the first sight of thunderstorm And people always say things like "your time will come" Who decides when is it a better time? And why do other people already have their time? Why is love something to wait for? Why can i just go look for it, set it as a goal? Why do we have to wait until someone want to pursue you? And find you interesting and deserving? Why is your happiness in someone else's hand?

Will It Make Sense?

Maybe You see life as a test I see it like a big mess I remember every word you said And still I cannot Forget The way you made me feel That day when I needed you there And you ran away I can't get over it cause I still feel rejected since that day I've been trying to make amends, Trying to find some way to feel Okay Like I belong somewhere, Like I'm worthy again.. I don't have hepatitis or aids but I feel like they Maybe It's your fault, maybe Its mine ALL I know is this trace of pain that you left my way Hopefully someday I look back and not feel sad when I think about that day The day you push me away.. I don't know what I did to deserve this misery I hope that in the end it all makes sense.

Dias Como Tu

Dias en que no quiero escribir, no quiero pensar, no quiero vivir Lo dificil es planear tu vida y que eso no llegue a ocurrir Perder el control de ella Quiero vivir a mi manera, imagino lo que quiera Y que ganamos con esto? cumplir lo que queremos? A veces todo es tan complejo.. Siempre me quejo Si bailamos , reimos ,y lloramos ? Cuando nada te da satisfación, y todo se vuelve monótono Nacer de nuevo seria la solución? Gente viene y va, solo quedan los momentos y la edad. Pienso en el amor y si es una falsedad? Porque sentirse tan vacio cuando alguno no esta? Como hacer que te vuelva la bondad? la caridad ? la hermandad? Si sólo el egoismo reina en nuestra sociedad. Sonar cliche debe ser un delito, pero está tan arraigado en nosotros que nos vuelve adictos al sin fin de comunes que vivimos.

Saying Goodbye

I'm sorry if I was hard on you when I said goodbye If I hurt you by letting you see I was hurt I mean no harm or pain I do wish you the best Don't believe me when I say. I don't want to talk to you cause I do But I can't be your friend maybe never again I wish I could because I value your friendship so much I wish my feelings weren't as strong but they are bigger than I had ever known I wish I could just take them away and we could talk like before I feel like I lost a true friend If you ever read this just know that you are one of the best people I've ever known I wish I could of told you this and so many things more But It was time for me to let you go I forgave you and I hope you can grow Forgive me if I treat you like a stranger But I have no other choice I'm not as strong as you thought I was If you ever read this just know I wish you happiness and joy.